run around, get dirty. make some bad decisions.

today my plan was to spend the day in bed with you.
maybe cook you breakfast, take you out for lunch. just enjoy being lazy.
then take you out tonight and show you a proper good time with my friends.
if you want to party, i can show you how to really party.

instead: i will be spending the day in bed, my bed, by myself probably with the dog.
waiting for 7pm to roll around so i can start getting ready.
i will go out. drink my weight. come home and do it all again tomorrow.


i know you've chosen. i just wish you the best of luck. and i'll see you in a few months when it fails.

edited to add: you can't fix her. really. and she doesn't want to be fixed. and why would you want someone who needs that over someone who doesn't? and dealing with someone like that at work is not the best idea. you are putting your career and reputation there on the line, and for what? if something went terribly wrong you would still have to see her everyday and what would you do if your boss got involved? you said yourself "don't fuck with people from work." don't pee where you sleep, don't mix business with pleasure.

edited twice to add: and what if you are her are fighting? you'll still have to see her everyday at work. i really just see this ruining the good job you have, not to mention your heart.
-xo