Tuesday, August 4, 2009

i miss feeling secure in my position.

this is something that i can't seem to get over.


Monday, August 3, 2009

i need some sort of confirmation.

before you had told me i was the "one". so i never felt like at any moment i was going to simply walk off the edge and fall endlessly into, well nothing.

now i have no words. all i have is a daily revolving door of uncertainty and high hopes. maybe thats why i'm so nervous. because what i know, you don't. and i don't know what to do to help you feel the same. or more realistically, just make myself deal with it.

and i know that if what has happened now...4 times... happens again i think i will crack. place me on a 5150. i just need some string of words or sentences to make me feel more at ease.

keep my head from feeling so heavy.